My Foolishness..

If you've worked so hard for the whole week, everyday, every minute at school and you've had an art examtoday then for the last day of the week you have to complete a music compostition which you had months to prepare for but your reason was you kept running away because you didnt think you could do it and the other half of the reason could be you couldn't be bothered. Well some people would say that it's you own fault right? You've had months to prepare but you've left it last minute. So you decide to pray to God to ask for a miracle, don't you think thats's foolish? It was your own laziness that caused you to do it last minute and now your asking God to do a miracle? Isn't that just asking too much? The phrase 'Try your best and God will do the rest.' But if you havent tried your best would God still help you? I know God is a loving God but doing something good for someone that was they're own fault, it just makes a person feel so guilty. His love is too great. I'm not saying that i don't believe that God can't do miracles but relying on God, isn't that just called laziness? I know i'm being a hypocrite and all. I know it's my fault. I know i don't deserve any of his love or grace but i just reali ask and pray to God. I know i'm being reali foolish but i don't know what else to do, i'm tired so i seek Him for rest, i know i can't really do anything now, i've tried my best it's not good enough cause i've left it so late. So if i fail or God doesn't answer my prayer then i know i should have worked harder and that what happened was my own fault.

I'm just so foolish to just keep asking for a miracle and yet i know it's my fault. Whether God does make a miracle happen is up to him, i just leave it to all to Him.