Can someone like me not show their true feelings? Must someone like me have keep everything in, since i've only just recently been able to a little bit more open but it looks like i'm going back to sqaure one. Okay i get it i'm a example to other people but can't i also show my imperfections? That i also i've got problems? Bt then again i guess your thinking i'm being stupid and that i'm supposed to be more optimistic. Yep i'm encouraging people and so i shouldn't show them my other side because it might discourage them right? there's no other place i can put these feelings, yea i can write them in my book but no ones going to read it, i can tell someone but the thing is they find it annoying and 'will they be able to understand?', or they might think this person is too depressing. I know i can tell God but sometimes even people like me need someone to lean on but who? Please remind me again, i think i've lost the feeling. I feel like i'm closing up again bt i don't think i could through it all. Am i just too full of myself? keep thinking of whats wrong with me, why i am the way i am or maybe i just feel tired and isolated. Why do i feel that i'm making the world revolve arround me? I wish i didn't think so much of myself, maybe if i did more i wouldn't feel this way. I wouldn't have to think of myself so much, cause it shouldn't be about me.
What do i need the most right now? How do i sort this all out?
(I'm not pointing at anyone, this is how i truly feel)
you are not alone. =) It's okay to be weak. God wants us to rely on him, so be that example and just be weak. Even the strongest people break at some point. For us we should be proud to be weak and just rely on those God put around us. I know its not easy to open up, but i guess that's your next step forward...
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